I have always delt with this in my life but I never met anyone like xxx. I met xxx in 2003 and fell in love with her immediatly. I don't know how she felt about me but I questioned her actions and the things she had said in the short time we knew each other.
One night, at church, there was an overwhelming closeness and without a word being spoken I knew that we had something. We reached a level that was different.
She said she met this neighbor that she wanted to bring to church. He was 20 and she was 30 but she said there was no romantic feelings between them. Even with that she said they went out and spent the night together which confused me but, she seemed to still be close to me. Six weeks later she tells me she's pregnant and wants nothing to do with the guy or wants him near or to help out with the baby. "He was just a sperm doner."
I counted back six weeks and it came out to be just that week that included that night that I felt we had that closeness. Meaning, I feel she wanted us to be together and she got pregnant for that reason too.
She stopped calling me or anwsering my phone messages. Next thing I find out she moved back home to be with her family in Kentucky. She had her baby there in May 2004.
My heart is totally broken and I can't move on without her and the baby. I think about them all the time.