I love my boyfriend so much. We have been together about a year. We spend most of our nights together. He is now unemployed and I work M-F, 7-5. He is going through a tough time. Laid off from a company for which he worked for 23 years. He also has a problem with getting depressed (he had a tough childhood. His dad died when he was a small child.). I think that the depression isn't terrible but, bothers him enough to want to get help. He just started seeing a psychiatrist for this which is good. He spends a lot of time online. I have found some things that make me curious. Directions to a woman's house, ripped up on the floor of his car. I asked him about it and he got mad, said I was snooping. The ripped up pieces were in plain sight. Naturally, I looked at them. He said it is a private thing. He says he is a private person, that's all. He was so mad that I looked at the paper and turned it into something that I did wrong. Once, when I was tidying up for him, I found condoms. We have never used them because he had a vesectomy years ago. When I asked about them, he said they were old and had used them before, for "safe sex". What is the usual time before expiration on condoms? The expiration date on these was the year 2008. He always gets defensive and mad at me when I try to tell him my feelings. I am very careful to not make it sound like I am accusing him of anything. He always makes it into something I did to him and he gets mad. He says I am paranoid. I don't want to think this terrible thing of him but, I also don't want to be hurt if he really is cheating on me. This is some of my story. Does anyone have any words of advice for me? I would be very appreciative. Thanks.