I met quite a young 24 year old lad over the internet a couple of weeks ago, he knew i was older and was very interested in getting to know me. I had my doubts as he was younger than myself, and prefer older men. Anyway, we went out and realised we had a fantastic time, really great nights out, had a laugh, had a joke and was very romantic too. But in my heart I knew something was missing, I still felt he was too young for me. There was that communication barrier, where he couldnt relate to my views, or couldnt really hold a firm conversation other than him and I, and I felt he lived in this dream world. So i told him that i think we should call it a day, because of the age gap, even though i am only 29. He wouldnt drop this and thought we should remain very good friends, i couldnt say no because i still had feelings for him. There was just this age difference where we couldnt quite relate to certain issues.
To cut along story short he tells me he has met someone he is working with on a training course,they are flirting and tells me she is not really his type, but he is playing it cool and she is very interested. I cant help but feel a tad down and upset, so once he tells me this, I pretend I am very pleased for him, and tell him we have to stop being friends, its for the best, again, he doesnt want to hear this and asks if this means i am now out of his life altogether, and not to chuck him out of my life. I have to move on like he has, but it hurts......I tell him yes this is it, no going back!!!
I feel, that if i contacted him again or he contacted me, the feelings would return again and i just cant go through with that at the moment. He suggested that once i have finished my degree in 5 years and he is 30 we should meet up again, but life just doesnt work like that! I am in the middle of sorting out my studies, work and travelling and because of this i cant seem to settle at the moment, then when i do find someone i pick faults?

....still confused?