My boyfriend and I have been together for 8 months. I am 29 and he is 26. Our relationship was amazing. He is my best friend. We really have an intense love that I have never found before. We were talking about moving in together and marriage in the next couple of years. Everybody always said we were the best couple. I have been in 3 long term relationships and have never felt this close and sure about someone in my life. I have trust issues but found that I was loving and very trusting with him. I am the person that I want to be with him.

He is in the Coast Guard and recently went away for 4 days for training. His cell phone did not get reception at the base and so our conversations were few and far between. On the last night of his training he called and our conversation did not go very well. We did not fight but I was really missing him and a little annoyed that we werent really able to talk. We talked for awhile, told eachother we loved and missed eachother and he got off the phone. He was going to the bar with his roommate. I didn't think twice about it.

He called me the next day and was very upset. He said that he had met a girl in the bar and she went back to the room with he and his roommate just to talk. He said that he ended up fooling around with her when his roommate left the room. He stopped it before it went all of the way and said that it all happended in 5 minutes that he was "taken back." He said the girl was incredibly forward. He was not attracted to her and could not "get in the mood". He is very sorry and says that it was the worst mistake he has ever made. He went days without eating and has been throwing up for the past week. He says that he was missing me a lot and realized that I had the ability to hurt him and he got scared. He now says that he has no doubts that I am the one for him and he wants nothing more than for me to give him a second chance. He says he loves me more than anything. He went and got all of the tests he needs to to make sure that I will be safe even though he didn't go all the way. He came up with the idea of us keeping a journal together so he can more openly express his feelings to me.

I want to forgive him more than anything and when we are together things are great. However, I find that I am having a really hard time letting go. I imagine him doing things with this girl that he should only be doing with me. I am scared this will happen again. I want to trust him but am not sure how to rebuild trust. He is willing to do anything and has answered all the questioned I have asked, and I have them all! I want to forgive him so much. I just don't know how. Please help me.