Two years ago for the first time in my life i feel in love completely with a wonderful man. I knew within weeks he was the one i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Over the next few months we moved in together and although the sex was never great i just thought that with time it would get better.After living together for a while i began to notice that he spent a lot of time looking at porn, i didnt have a problem with this at first as i didnt mind looking at it myself. We bought a house together and i introduced him to my family and my dad which was something i had never done before.Over the next few months i saw that the problem was getting worse but thought that he just needed to talk to someone i told him he had a problem but he would deny that it was.

He asked me to marry in at midnight on new years eve and i have never been happier in my life it was fantastic but after a month my father fell ill and i had to go away for two weeks. When i came back i found out that he had been on dating website and in the end i told him that he had a problem and he admitted to me he had. I could never walk away from him and i now realise that this is because my mother died of cancer when i was 6 and i have issues around it.

Now after months of his therapy and both of us being very upset he has moved out to try and sort himself out however within days of deciding this he had girls numbers in his phone. We have given our selves until new years day to try and sort out our own issues i just cant imagine a life with out him because i know he loves me but this addiction he has is so strong.

I have thought about killing myself the last few days since he moved out and it scares me, i dont want to feel like this.