I met my husband on the internet almost 7 years ago in. I was 19 and still in high school and he was 26, made good money, owned his own house and had everything anyone could ever want. He was handsome and the sweetest guy I have ever met. He lived an hour away so he came to see me every weekend. I moved in with him 2 months before I graduated high school in 2001 and I drove an hour to and from school every day until school was over.

Everything seemed perfect all the way up until we got married in 2004. After we got married I started having a few problems with my menstrual cycle. I would have my period for 3 months straight then I wouldnt have one for 4 months. We decided that we wanted to have a baby but I couldnt get pregnant because of my crazy menstrual cycle. I went to 4 different doctors and all they would do is try to put me on birth control. I refused to take birth control because we were trying to get pregnant. Then I lost my health insurance because my job moved out of state and I was layed off. So I had to stop going to the doctor and we stopped trying to get pregnant because we dont want to have a baby if I'm not healthy and if I dont have insurance.

Then one about a little over a year ago I started my period and it still hasnt stopped. I cant go to the doctor because we cant afford it with out insurance and the job I have now doesnt have health benefits and I cant get individual insurance because im over weight. My husband and I have only had sex 2 times with in the last year and a half. It has gotten to the point were he works late (I KNOW he's actually working and not cheating) and when he's not working late he is at home playing an online adventure game. He wont spend any time with me and when I try to spend time with him by playing that game with him he always gets mad at me because I do something wrong. We argue all the time. He doesnt kiss me or anything anymore. The most I can ever get from him now is a hug or a kiss on the cheek. He says he loves me but only when I say it first.

I feel like our relationship just keeps getting worse and its all my fault. He is always in a bad mood. He says he is stressed about money but I look at the bank account and we have plenty of money. My family all lives a longs ways away and his family lives 1 mile from us. I have no friends. I feel very lonely and confused. I dont know how to turn things around and get my relationship back with my husband. I do everything I know how to try to make him happy but nothing seems to work. I am starting to think that the only way for him to be happy is for me to divorce him. I love him sooo much and I really dont want to do that. I have been searching for a better job just for the health benefits. I keep hoping that if I can get a job like that then I can get my health straightened out and we can have a baby. Maybe that would make him happy. But a job like that for someone like me is really tough to find. I just dont know what else to do. Im sorry this is so long but I really hope someone will read this and have some good advice for me.