I was involved in a horrific car crash 6 weeks ago that resulted in the death of my partner, however I was able to walk away from the accident uninjured. We had been together 12 years & were very happy. Since the accident though I have been in a state of constantly wanting sex. Although I have not actually had sex I have been unable to stop thinking about it or wanting it & have masturbated most days since the crash.
I have tried to find out if anyone else has been through anything similar but all I come up with is people talking about how many years they went before they could even think about talking to another man & then still never having a sexual relationship for years after that. All this makes me feel worse, even though I'm not looking to replace my partner.
I feel so confused about these feelings & I feel such guilt that comes with them. I feel that I am some sort of freak & a sick person to have thoughts like this. But they won't go away, I am only 36 years old & know that I'm too young to stay a widow but it seems so wrong to have such a strong desire for sex only days after what happened.