Female and married for 16 years, also have four lovely daughters and a great husband or so I thought! After my father died almost 3 years ago I have suffered mental health problems! I have been off worked for 10 months and am being pressurised into returning (dismissal on long term ill-health). This itself has hampered my recovery, in fact sent me over the edge yet again!
The problem here at present is I cant seem to talk to my husband and let him in on how bad things are! He seems to understand and tell me he's here for me 24/7 but then closes the door by not helping me to talk to him or creating any opportunities! It's as if he's avoiding talking because he knows the outcome, me going back into a mental health hospital again! I cannot face this and suspect he feels the same, neither of us are therefore talking about things!
I have some intense support going on from the home team at hospital and a resource centre, which indicates to him how bad things have got but we still don't seem to talk about it! I know in my heart that if I force the issue he will talk to me but something stops me and is slowly distoying my soul!
Why am I bringing such suffering on myself by stumbling at such lack of communication! I have discussed some terrible things in the past with him so why am I having such difficulty now! It's so bad I'm constantly ripping the relationship to pieces and thinking that we should separate! Any help would be gratefully received!!!